jokes

i dunno wad else to say when im about to lost 1 more friend again.
i dunno wad else to do when im feeling this shag again.
things still havnt been getting better and with the lost of motivation ,
i've no more idea on how to carry on.


-a word describe a person , 
-an action describe a person's heart.
@8.03pm

Procrastinating the imperishable .

things were so normal in sch today except that i'd 1 hour of chat with vp.
after the chat she said im more mature than the way i look like.. wtf?
i didnt know my face looks so childish in sch uniform..

after sch i went home and took a 2-3hour nap and continue with my animes.
i just kinda feel that human being are so unpredictable.
people always tend to give up but wads the reason behind it?
i'd always been wondering..

i'd just went to some friend's fb.
altho they type with cmi singlish but they reserved the sophisticated meaning there.
they wont let desire turn into obsession.
the more they wanted to hide , the more they reserve thier feelings.

my stands are not longer as firm. i started to believe that im actually escaping.
or is it because that i'd lost the key of motivation?
as usual, i'm always compiling everything together and try to solve it alone.
is this still all right?

lots of thing kept running thru my mind for the past few days but
i will not allow it to be a factor for me to give up.

-what am i tarrying for?
-fight for wad u'd borrowed from tml.

the gentle touches on my window.

the whole day is raining..
im watching how gently the rain is hitting the window.
the feeling , the mood , the everything seems to be moving very slow..
lots of mementos are reaching out for my mind again..
but even tho, my mind are ignoring all of it..

the coldness that i'd never fail to feel is stronger today.
i rather it dun end today with my sleep.
somehow i just feel that the wave keeps on comming and i cant escape.
i know i must keep the journey continue.


the feeling seems to be revolving around lots of things and people
it's no longer just about me.
from the last time i blog till now i seems to be feeling the same..
somehow, everything seems to be so pressuring.


i hate to admit that i'd already lost the key of motivation already.


-'heart' is nothing but the best proof to proof the meaning of one's existence.
@8.06pm